Crazy, I know.
Overreacting, prolly…
But damn
Can’t help it
Can’t help the feeling
Can’t help the judging
Can’t help but think what if
What if she never left
What if he acted right
What if they tried…
Tried not much but just a lil’
Would it be different
Would I be happier
Would these tear wells disappear
Would a smile ever be plastered on me
Would…would our health be better
But all these I have zero answers to
All cause no one tried
No one raised not a finger
All they did was watch it crumble
Watch it wash and drain down the drains
Down the drains and off to the deepest of pits
A pit so deep that no one could reach
Why didn’t you try
Why didn’t you just fucking try
Why didn’t you even pretend to be trying
No one knows
No one but thine little armful hearts
Hearts which you trample over again and again
Today I looked into one of yours
Yes, I peered into one of thy hearts
Regret, remorse, wishful thinking
All wrapped into a tiny bundle
Placed at the darkest corner in there
At the other corner was pretense
Hypocrisy.
Pretense of how happy thou art
How unbothered
How unreachable
But the eyes could do it no more
The eyes are tired
Tired of trying to smile
Tired of the façade
That’s why they’ll look away
That is why they un-cooperate with the lying parted lips
I saw it all,
I saw it all when I peered today
You;
You still love her.
You still hold her dear
But you will never show
You will never tell
Why though
Why watch each other drown
Drown in the beautiful memories
And reminisce of what it would have been
What the whole would have looked like
And so as my judging eyes dart between you both
Question not
Same way I questioned not
Render no explanation
As none was ever offered when needed
Just let me
Just let us
Me, my judging eyes ,my judging thoughts
Let us judge in peace
Let us prejudice in peace
Let us reminisce in peace
Let us keep peering and watch as thy hearts shatter to pieces.