
The tears I shed,
Crying myself to sleep
Night after night
Calling unto you
Calling unto the invisible,
The inconceivable
But yet,
Still trusting beyond all
Oh
The memories
The kneeling till my knees got sore
Calling out to you,
Weeping for you to look my way
Other times, no words would escape my dried out throat
Yet
Evening after evening,
I never seized
I never missed my self-inflicted strife
Then finally,
Finally, you shone your light upon me
My beautifier
My redeemer
You heard my unsaid words
You responded to my woes
You made me know you were there
That you heard
And that You cared
Cared for this wretched human soul
A soul overridden by imperfections
By the unmentioned
Am not the perfect epitome
Am nothing close to you
Not even a single inch
And yet, you love me anyway
Even during those times when I doubt your existence
You still love me
I know,
How would I know of your love
In such moments when am in doubt of your presence
I know it cause I feel it
I feel the warm embrace of your words
The sweet caress of your touch
The soothing comfort of your assurance
Then, then I know you are still there
Then am reminded you never left
Then, then I get back on my knees and I cry
No,
This time,
Not tears of pain
Not tears of anguish
No.
This time, I cry as it’s the only way my soul can communicate
I cry as words fail me
I cry as none of the 5 languages I’ve mastered
Have words enough to describe this overwhelming love.
And as I listen to the melody in the drought
I smile in the midst of my sniffles
I smile as you have made me joyful
I laugh and giggle
The song “umejua kunifurahisha” becomes my anthem
And I lift my voice unto you
And sing praises unending
And glorify your name
And give thanks for your agape love.