My 21st Xmas!!
How do I feel? Blessed? Joyous? Loved?
Maybe, but at most, I feel at peace.
That peace that feels like balm.
That peace that makes you think of flowing smooth white chocolate.
Peace that results in this inexplicable calm.
That calm that brings harmony.
That beautiful symphony to this chaotic life
That synergy that aligns everything back to order
Is it because it’s a sunny Xmas?
Is it because……….
Is it because of the relaxing carols in the stereo?
It’s not because of all that
Its because of the survival mode
Its because of the achieved past
It’s a calm that precedes determination
It’s a harmony of everything seemingly working out
It’s the symphony that echoes assurance
Even for that slight minute
The idea of everything falling to place
The whispers that everything will be just fine
That its all not that serious
That you are doing just fine
That you have seen yet another Xmas;
That’s just but reassuring enough
That’s the only assurance you need
When you hold your chest
And still feel that thudding heart
Feel that rhythmical heartbeat
Then you know that deep down
You’re still fighting
You’re still surviving
You’ve not given up
Just not yet.
Because you my love, are a SURVIVOR!